Sunday, July 23, 2017

What the hell have I done

Woah. Scott came to our church today and preached my face off. His crazy story is a little like mine. Too bad I have wasted the last 15 years of my life and he has provided clean water to millions. Geez. What is it that some people have that thing that makes them get up and go and some people sit on the sidelines and let their lives pass them by?

Call it the "I'm almost 45 life crisis" or whatever but for the love I can not get settled. My sprit. My heart. My head. It's all crazy. I've been feeling so reflective and yet resentful at the same time about the past 15 years of my life. What in the hell difference have I made? Yeah I have 2 great kids yada yada but those 2 kids are spoiled and entitled and have no sense of anything outside of themselves. As a mom I feel like I have failed them. In almost the same amount of time that Scott has basically changed the freaking world I have watched my mom die from stupid breast cancer and raised 2 entitled kids. Woohoo. Good for me. 

I'm having a massive pity party today. 

Saturday, July 22, 2017


I've decided to start writing about my days. I've said it before and I'll say it again, my memory sux. Maybe if I start journaling again it will help. I have no idea how long this will last or even what will come of it but here goes. 

Today is Saturday. I worked on my school work for a bit then worked in the yard. I chopped the mess out of the rose bushes. You can actually see the porch again. Our house is so pretty when it isn't over run by too many bushes!

After working in the 92 degree heat I took the boys to the pool. 

I also finished stringing an order. 

I also worked on trying to get the circle from Disney thing to work. It should be good for our family once I get it set up. 

I think that's it's for now.